淑婷❤

Saturday, 11 August 2018.

I looked at you, you glanced away. You were right there, but then, I couldn't move my lips, it was too hard to speak when my voice got caught in the silence you left between us. You chose to walk away, and I let you. For months I regretted my mistake, for months I wish you'd stayed, but then I realized I did nothing but care about you. I put our friendship before what I would call a relationship. I thought we were close because you thought the same, but of course you stayed that long for your own reasons. Even till this day, I'd do anything for you my friend, but you couldn't even take some time to come hang out on the last week I would be around, that was the one time I realized you never really truly saw me as a friend you couldn't lose. The "friend"that made a difference in your life. The "friend" that you missed. It was either something or it was nothing. Sometimes I do miss you, and the way we acted around each other, the way we spoke to each other, the way you cared, the way you had to make sure I reached home safely. The way you worried if I drank too much, the way you motivated me to pursue dance. Sometimes I do miss you and the way that you are. But suddenly, I just wasn't sure if it was you anymore.I used to think that every mistake was a learning experience, every phase in life was just a lesson, and every journey I took, the struggles I went through, I appreciated them for I thought it was what made me stronger. Usually, I wouldn't wish it hadn't happened, more so, I'm actually glad it did. But what I went through the past few months, I wish it was a phase I could just forget. A phase I wish I could erase, so that it never happened. It costed me two friends in the process, one whom I stopped trusting, and one whom I truly opened my heart out to. If I could do it again, I wouldn't. I would've walked away, saves time for the both of us. I still wish you the best.

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