淑婷❤

Monday, 16 March 2015.

Woohoo! March break just started, though its only 1 week, but I feel I really need it.. So far, I don't feel so alone anymore, I made more friends that could make me look forward to school instead of dreading the week but still I miss home. Back to the craziness that breaks out whenever I'm with them, and the outings that are never ending. Time is so limited, that I have to cherish each moment that has passed. I never realized how much time we have on our hands, that I've been wasting it all these while. I wanted to go back to Singapore in June, cause I have a 2 month holiday, but my mom insists that I get my drivers' license, and I got so pissed because she already told me I could've gone back. Why do people make promises when they know they cant keep them? And instead, they make people excited for something that isn't going to happen. It's not that I am dying to go back, but I just feel that I don't want to risk losing any of the friends that I've left. I thought I had confidence and faith in all my friendships, but I realized they have their own time on other things, and so do I. If this keeps up, what's going to happen?
Currently, I am feeling so damn relieved with those that I used to have problems with. Like everything has cleared up, I don't owe anyone anything and neither do they. I am so happy because it's not that I ever hold grudges, it's just I don't want people ending up with hatred when something goes wrong. I'm not that type. And I don't want my friendships to be like that. So far, everyone's happy and yes, it makes me wanna go back to singapore more so that I could catch up with those that I haven't had chance with. :(
Anyways, I have been thinking about chances lately. I believe in second chances, but at the same time, there's always a reason why a chance was needed in the first place. It is because of the mistakes. The mistakes made, though were forgiven but not forgotten. I wish I could use this opportunity, so badly, but it is bad of me to think it that way when you're hurt, probably deeply where you might to pretend you're fine when you're not. So for now, I could only be there as a friend, to bring up a smile from a frown. It hurts, that even if there was this slightest chance, it wouldn't mean a thing because I know I still can't have you. Now, I just have to walk away from this, because god has made it impossible. Its fated. And I believe it's time for me to let go.
So depressing HAHA. Anyways I have been baking for the past few weeks! Woohoo, finally I have a person to bake with. My eldest brother's girlfriend arrived from Taiwan and thank god she likes baking. I'm having so much fun cause I can finally bake without my mom telling me that "You have to study", "You'll make a mess", or my friends telling me that my house is too far. :'D I should upload pictures in my next post. WOW, I am probably one of the only ones among all my friends who actually still blog. So lame of me >.< Okay bye!

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