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Friday, 6 February 2015.

TGIF!! Its finally Friday and I've lasted throughout my first week of school! I met these amazing friends; Elena, Rojan, Celina, Sadia, Inna, Liza, Tina, Helia and a few others. It's been extremely cold these couple of days, so cold that it's getting hard to walk, and I've to take the bus. Not exactly how I pictured my morning to be. I'm taking Yearbook, Dance, English and Maths for this semester, probably Gym, biology, Hotel management or Chemistry/Physics for the next. I'm planning to join clubs just to occupy my free time. I've been loving dance more and more as my lessons continue. We are currently learning contemporary dance and I just love the choreography. Though I miss Singapore, I'm starting to believe that Canada might not be as bad as I thought. But I just don't fit in here. In Singapore, I had friends that surround me, though sometimes I still felt alone. But now I feel lonely WHEN I'm alone. I tried not to think about it cause when I get home, I'd be home to my brothers and I wouldn't feel so alone. But literally half my day is spent in school, and I just hope I'm able to survive the year. I miss all my friends, I don't wanna name them out, just in case I miss a few. But I really do miss them, and how we'd all hang out. But the longer I stay here, the further away I drift from where I thought I belonged. Singapore still feels like home to me, and my friends are like my family I wish I'd continue to see everyday. I hope they won't forget me. I wish they'd all just whatsapp me and ask how I've been. Maybe I should initiate the first gesture?
I just found out some interesting yet crazy news. I was hurt by it, but the more I think about it, the more I feel it's getting less important to me. I just wish I could be as important to people who are important to me. But life's like this, and the only people you treat importantly just treats you as 'somebody else' and probably not even close to 'special' or important. I thought a lot about the news and I just thought to myself (like always) that I'm not good enough. So I guess I just won't be expecting much from this particular person then and just focus on what's in front of me!
I can't wait to visit Singapore. I really hope I could be there during May though, and go to the backstreet boys' concert with Luisa. Hopefully by the time I get there, not much will change. I just can't believe I'm taking Grade 10 Math and I'm probably like the oldest in class. Hehe but people still look at me like I'm their age or probably younger. I would gladly take that as a compliment. I love the cafeteria food here, but it's extremely expensive. So actually, I;d pack sandwiches and probably just buy my juice or head to the mall with Rojan and get a snack at Tim Hort's. I miss my mom and dad, but this is probably best for me, according to them. I'd probably return as an independent Serena who bathes when I'm told, and does my homework without being nagged at. Or.. Just the same ol' me. ^_^

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