Thursday, 12 February 2015.
Hi Mei,
Nick here. First of all, I hope you had a good birthday. I know it was probably not the kind of birthdays you're used to because it was just us spending it with you. I'm sure you miss all your friends and wished to hell that they could've been here but sadly, the reality is that you need to get used to this feeling of loneliness until you finally meet new people here. All three of us, and now you, have left behind people we thought we would never be able to but I'm sure I speak for all of us that we found strength in one another to pull us through our darkest hours. Your three ridiculously handsome and single brothers (just kidding) are always here for you if you need us.
I'm sure many people agree with us that you're not overflowing with self-confidence but I want to say this, and hopefully for the final time, that if anything, you should feel the exact opposite. You're one of the sweetest people I know. You try to put yourself before others and sometimes you end up getting hurt but that doesn't stop you from yet again putting faith into the people who have hurt you. That's just the kind of person you are. You try your best to avoid imposing on other people even if it means you have to accomplish something through a more difficult route. Just to give an example, if you know I'm tired or you know that cooking something just for you because you're hungry would be inconvenient for me, you would rather go hungry instead of making me go through the trouble. These are small gestures that carry deeper meanings than people think. I say this to everybody who knows who my baby sister is - you are lucky to have her as your friend and you are definitely right if you have ever said or thought that you are blessed to have had the privilege of meeting her or being what she calls a good friend.
I could easily spend an entire day with you just talking about absolutely nothing. It's almost as easy as breathing. Maybe even easier. We've spent hours and hours just sitting in front of a computer and just singing. You're my favourite singing partner and I wouldn't do that with anybody else in the world (except Taeyeon). Lol. You'd pick Donghae over me any day too so don't give me that "wah lau what kind of brother are you" bullshit. LOL.
Basically what I'm trying to say is that you will always be my baby sister. Age is nothing more than a number. I will still be pinching your face when you're 80 years old.
Love you more than you think.
Sincerely,
Nick
20:03
Friday, 6 February 2015.