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Tuesday, 17 June 2014.

ITS JUNE. After intensives and exams, I believe my holidays only started yesterday. And I've like 1-2 weeks left of June to actually relax. But wait, there's still homework. Just when you thought things got better -.- Can't wait for baking, movie marathons, adventure cove, sleepovers and shopping with all my friends before you know, the 1 and a half week is up. I AM SO EXCITED> My brothers are coming back to Singapore in July and will be staying for about a month and a half and I've got like plenty of plans, I cant wait.

Its been long ever since my last post, but not like anyone's keeping track right? There's just so many things that happened this year, I don't even know where to start. Should I start with friendship? Well... This year I've got quite some problems, but I find it normal. Everyone has friendship issues. I just feel that I'm always the one involved when quarrels occur. My mom says its perhaps because I'm the problem? I don't even know what I do sometimes. Like I've got issues where I've been neglected by my own very friends, or they talk behind my back. I mean everyone's experienced this before I'm sure but why is that so? I've drifted from my friends, but I am glad because from this, I've gained something else. A closer friendship or a close clique that I could look to when things get out of hand. I still care, though. But I'll only care when I should. Some friends should be kept, some friends should've never been there. There's too many memories to actually allow me to let go. But I want those few to know I'd still be there, who cares even if we don't talk, that doesn't mean I'd stop caring. I've said things I shouldn't have, but they were out of anger, and I never meant it. I'd fight for the friends I need and care. I'm just going to say thank you to those who've been there for me, I really needed them. Well, this is high school ^_^
Well, crushes, stupid crushes. Don't you find it tiring when you try, and try, and try, but they don't get the hint. It's funny how at some point you really want them to know how you feel, but too afraid that you don't even want them to know at all. Sometimes it hurts and you try not to care but come on, its not easy, is it? He cares only when he needs to, but that's the only time you ever want to hold onto the moment. Cause there won't be any others. I'll always think to myself, "is it worth it?" but truthfully, even if its not, my heart still beats when I see him. Now you can't stop that. :'D You know, I'm too busy for these things. Takes too much time. Moved on from the other, now onto another. Life.

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