Thursday, 19 September 2013.
HURT, LIES, PAIN, TRUTH.
I am sure everyone has felt such pain and hatred before. My blogpost for today, is to convey this message to all of you, to not give in so much, as you'll just be at home, crying to yourself. Y'know the feeling of when you treated someone so
special and important, and you realize you aren't as special in their heart as how you thought you were? You're not alone. There will always be a time, when you are always picked last, or worse yet, you aren't even an option. Being alone, thinking there's just so many
friends who surround you, but you're thinking to yourself, that it wouldn't make a difference to whether you were there or not. To think, you've pain-stakingly tried to put effort into this friendship, despite knowing that the other person doesn't care at all. To feel jealous, that another's has taken your place and you feel
lost because they were all you have. Friends come and go, no matter how much you want them to stay, they'll just unknowingly drift off, and in a blink, they're just not by your side anymore. To my close ones, I'm known to push them away. It's because I am so tired. So tired of caring for people, so tired of all the problems that come up, so
afraid of what was going to happen next. Never would I have thought that everyone would start to leave, and we're all going separate ways. I push people off, because I tend to be attached too easily, and when the truth comes, you know that
anger and hurt that often visits you? Yeah, they come back. That is why, I don't want to be too attached, because unfortunately, I have a weak heart, and it can't contain all the pain, whether it is small, or big, because it's just too hard to
accept what's coming before you.
This may happen in relationships as well. Things don't go as perfect and smooth as you would hope so. Its a stage in life. When we come across it, we just gotta step over it and
move on, we can't just go back to where you've started and leave your footsteps hanging when there's still a whole journey left to go. I learnt from this. I've always thought, that it was painful, to know that this certain person meant the world to you, but now, it's like they never knew you at all. Confused. You never thought that it would come to an end. But everyone should be given a chance to meet new people, and get along with them much better than they did with you. Why bother to shed a tear for the person who
left your side when they said they woudn't. But honestly, we've all been that person sometimes. I have.
People don't understand you, and they
shoot you with their words, whether it may be face to face or thru the screens of your phones. They think it doesn't hurt, but they don't even know the half of it. How much
courage it is to take all the criticism in and act like everything's fine when it's not. I hate it. Whether it is your fault or not, there's no reason why people should be
blaming you in any ways possible. They haven't stepped in your shoes. They don't know your story, but sure they can
judge on your life for all types of reasons and never did they realize that small words could actually make such a big impact and effect.
Friendships, relationships, criticism, they all spell 'hurt' in them. But if you play the cards right, there will be none. Be sure to keep close the ones who have continued to stick by you, and
appreciate that you're just there.
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