Sunday, 25 September 2011.
Saturday, 10 September 2011.
Its been a month and 10days. Although I want to smile, I cant help but frown. Perhaps its too hard to let go this misery, this pain ? Or is it Im just never happy ? I still miss you, like I always had. As I told myself, I miss you, just like I did yesterday, and just like I would tomorrow. You cant stop me. I never wanna give up, but somehow to me you're. Please dont treat it like a feather, something's thats not of use to you. Cause its just so important to me. Although Ive cried at times in the past, its nothing compared to how I cried then. Youve been thru it before, but I havent. Its harder for me, cause I dunno what to feel, wat to react, and what to think.
Was on twitter, and I realized another quarrel occured. Hates it when people treat it normally. Why cant they just make up and pretend there was never a topic to fight about ? Friendships are so important. If you dont have a friend, whose shoulder would you cry on ? Who's gonna listen to your probs and be there for you when you need them most ? Although I have no right to leave my opinions bout this as I have no part of the situation, I still feel all of you just treat each friend for granted cause none of you are apologizing. One's at fault for being so straightforward, the other is just cause of her own wrongdoings.
Things have been ging thru my mind lately. I dont wish to keep things inside, and so I didnt tell them whats been bothering me, but at the moment I didnt wish to talk. I dont really like secondary school life. Its given me so much probs and yet I have to live with it and act as if Im totally fine with it when Im not. I want my childhood days back. My childishness, fun, hilarious moments. I understand in life, things have to change otherwise. But at that time I didnt know whether to cherish the moments when I was younger. How did I know in secondary school, Id turn out to be who I am now ? A girl who gives face, shows attitude etc. You all must hate me, but dont worry, cause I hate myself too. Ive changed so much. Everyone did. What I hate most is how feelings could fade so easily. I kept wondering to myself. If I never came to Secondary school, I'd never have met you and get heartbroken in the end. I want my old best friends back. I love my new ones as much, but it doesnt mean I wanna let go of how much fun I had in the past just cause I lost all their contacts. They might've move on, and I dont mind, I just hope they remember and cherish the moments we had like I am.
Seems like Im having lots of probs. But cant help it. 1word 4letters: L I F E.
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