Friday, 5 August 2011.
Happy supposedly '5th month'....
Sorry for the times when you looked for me to cheer me up, or came to talk with me, I just looked away without turning back. Its because I couldnt face you. But the truth is, when I see you, my heart beats so fast, and I didnt wanna let you see the sadness in my eye. After all these troubles, my tears happen to fall down... And today, is such a special day, but no one to spend it with. But Ive always wondered if youd come to me out of nowhere and hold my hands,wipe my tears and tell me not to cry. But you never came, and that made me lose hope, that there may never be an 'us' again.......
I remembered our first date together, you fed me sushi @ Westmall. It was so embarrassing but I never failed to smile. We went to walk to the cinemas, where we watched Gnomeo and Juliet, and you held my hands. I felt like crying cause I couldnt find the ticket for the movie, It could be one of my memories of you.
Everyday, you text me late at night, soon, there'd be no text from you at all. Cause I know you needa move on, and you dont need me anymore. Youre trying to forget me... I told myself, I wont forget you, my love for you wouldnt fade away. Ill keep those memories in my heart, even though I should throw them into one corner cause thats the only way I could let go. But no way, if I say I love you, means I love you. Although youre not by my side anymore, somehow, somewhere out there, youd be looking at me.
I wanna forget my tears that I shed every once or twice everyday, cause I know its pain for my friends to see that they cant cheer me up but just watch me cry. I wanted to do so many things with you but didnt get the chance to,
so much to do, but so little time...
Ive done one of the anniversary present already. And I hope youd like it.Even if you dont, at least keep it to remember me by. All those 4months, dont throw them away. Thanks for reminding me how to love again.
I know, that if I said I wanted you back, youd be hurt even more. So all I can say is, thanks for the milk tea you bought for me today. And, dont text me cause I want you to, text me cause YOU want to. Sigh, it hurts me so much, and I cant even bear to tell you that. Im such a failure.....
Sorry for all those times Ive disappointed you, but at least I wouldnt have to do it again.
Oh gosh, Iloveyou......
06:42
