Saturday, 28 August 2010.
Huh-.-in full depression right now... In fb, I saw
his name in 'People you may know'. My first reaction: OMG he freakin deleted me?! And suddenly, I had this feeling in my heart telling me that Im freakin sad:( It was as if it was shot with an arrow, forcing the rest of my heart to wrinkle or get swollen, or just continue to crack in the middle, that makes it so obvious it wont last. And when I clicked on that name, no mutual friends-.-and so I quickly checked
his profile and it wasnt there. I was quite relieved, as I freakin thought
he deleted me, and was freakin serious that day.... Wanting to delete me from
hes life, expecting me to suffer like this... Waiting for
him to come online, but actually, its just that
he deleted his account-.-Somehow I just felt that this whole time ignoring me, was so I would slowly begin to like
him. And as much as I dont want to say this, its working... Im beginning to think all this was just a big joke to
him.
He doesnt even know how I freakin feel... Im just waiting for him to tell me the truth. Id rather get hurt with honesty, than pleased with all
hes lies that I totally believed. He doesnt even know how much
he broke my heart.
He looks at me with
hes cold brown eyes. Staring right into me, as if I was transparent cause
hes eyes doesnt even directly meet mine... Well, hope he doesnt lie any further and just tell me the truth, right to me, face to face. No matter how much it would hurt my feelings, I deserve to know the truth bout how he really feels about me.
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