Monday, 30 August 2010.
Huh, I saw him again today, and I practically rolled my eyes and didnt even give him a second look. Still wondering what I should do with the keychain he gave me, its too cute to throw away. But still, my pained heart is stuck within it, and all I want to do, is to get that feeling away-.-anyways, browsed through Rowell's blog again, and some passerbys are still spamming her tagboard-.-even though its none of my business, just feel like telling them, whether theyre jealous, cause really theres no freakin reason why they should say shes ugly or whatever. If theyre not happy with the way she looks, just tell her personally-.-anyways, went to westmall today with friends, stayed till 6+pm I know its freakin early, but scared my mum scolds me afterwards.. Stuck with finishing the rest of the project. Its freakin nice if you ask me:) Gonna go back to my primary school to see my teachers again, sorry since I had no time to go buy presents, I shall just give them a card, handmade. Gotta see Mr Shyam, 陈老师, and others:) Hehe, cant wait!^^ Wonders if Ge Hui & Hae San are going as well... Well, I shall end here with a goodbyes~ :D
05:07
Sunday, 29 August 2010.
Had a pain experience... Cause I found out
he really deleted me in fb... I felt freakin sad, and now I try to hate him. How to face him in school tomorrow? Does he think its fun for me suffering like this when I thought maybe we could have just talked it out? He is an ass hole, never wanna see him again. Hes freakin heartless, if he hates me, why not freakin tell it to my freakin face?! Hes the worst, never met one like him-.-I HATE him! Should throw away the keychain he gave me right? Or should I just give it back to him? Hes full of lies, hes nothing to me anymore. I can tell he seriously wants to delete me from hes life, and its freakin totally fine with me! Freakin ass hole, hope hes freakin reading this, but no, I dont even think he even knows my freakin blog url, I dont even freakin see him as a bro anymore. Hes a freakin PISSER, even if hes good to me again, no matter what, I wont forget this incident! Hes such an ass-.-
07:03
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Everyone just doesnt see the good side in me and just pretend being friends with me as if I only existed when they needed me. Like if they have no one else to talk to, they come sit beside me, and when I start to tell them secrets, they tease me, and even there shout it out. Huh, well anyways, currently thinking about the
somebodys in my life. All of them broke my heart-.-just thinking of them makes me hurt more.. My heart needs to be stitched back into shape and I just need to move on:) Serena, have the motivation to forgive&forget. Btw, one of the
hims talked to me just now:) Was quite happy, but the conversation wasnt long enough... Anyways, I shall just sign off here...
04:25
Saturday, 28 August 2010.
Huh-.-in full depression right now... In fb, I saw
his name in 'People you may know'. My first reaction: OMG he freakin deleted me?! And suddenly, I had this feeling in my heart telling me that Im freakin sad:( It was as if it was shot with an arrow, forcing the rest of my heart to wrinkle or get swollen, or just continue to crack in the middle, that makes it so obvious it wont last. And when I clicked on that name, no mutual friends-.-and so I quickly checked
his profile and it wasnt there. I was quite relieved, as I freakin thought
he deleted me, and was freakin serious that day.... Wanting to delete me from
hes life, expecting me to suffer like this... Waiting for
him to come online, but actually, its just that
he deleted his account-.-Somehow I just felt that this whole time ignoring me, was so I would slowly begin to like
him. And as much as I dont want to say this, its working... Im beginning to think all this was just a big joke to
him.
He doesnt even know how I freakin feel... Im just waiting for him to tell me the truth. Id rather get hurt with honesty, than pleased with all
hes lies that I totally believed. He doesnt even know how much
he broke my heart.
He looks at me with
hes cold brown eyes. Staring right into me, as if I was transparent cause
hes eyes doesnt even directly meet mine... Well, hope he doesnt lie any further and just tell me the truth, right to me, face to face. No matter how much it would hurt my feelings, I deserve to know the truth bout how he really feels about me.
10:00
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Just browsed through Rowell's blog-.-many people are spamming her tagboard, quite a pity. Well, anyways, currently online in fb, waiting for
him to finally be online, even though
he might not start the convo, wish I had the courage to~then maybe
he has no choice but to talk to me:) Maybe... What if theres really no such chance in this world when a girls in this type of complicated situation? No such luck uh?
02:32
Friday, 27 August 2010.
Currently using my bro's com since my stupid ass com is freakin useless and broken-.-anyways, just talked with michelle bout my probs~chatted with LinKang yesterday bout my probs too, and even he doesnt know how to help~ Freak.... Can this get worse?
21:40
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Omg, had chinese oral today and I freakin sucked.... And Rowell pinched the freakin crap out of me to stop me from being nervous.... It failed:P Got me more nervous! And I kinda almost forgot to greet the teacher, and I even spoke english to her, and I was like crap, gonna fail... Wth? Cant wait for english oral, it might help me forget about this embarrassing day... Huh, I feel so damn depressed today! Cause
he didnt talk to me again today-.- As well as the other
he-.-they just dont give me the respect or attention I need from them. Sure... Some eye contact, but just looked away, just cant face them after what Ive done... Damn you, is this what I deserve?-.-nevermind, maybe send a message to
him in fb? Would
he reply? Would
he even go online? Huh, just have to wait, I caused it, time to fix it......
04:57
Thursday, 26 August 2010.
Yo~ Took a nap for awhile just now zz. Too tired. Went to Bukit Panjang after school, bought my lunch and ate ice cream at Mac. :D Just finished my stupid audiocast project, finally... And in school, that Ms Yeo went to tell the whole class about all the people who hasnt finished the science geography module. So freakin embarrassing! Omg, just saw
him today. Gotta tell Jasmine Erica & Man Jia something important tomorrow that even I cant decide myself.....
04:32
Sunday, 22 August 2010.
나는 무엇을 해야 하는가? 많은 사람들이 많은 것으로 기대하고 있는 나를 모르고 나는 도대체 예정 임 할 말도 없었습니다. 그는 대답을 기대하고 있는 6일까지 끔찍한 경보음입니다. 그러나 난 그와 같은 쓸데없는 말도 기분이 상을 많이 했었죠.
00:42
Saturday, 21 August 2010.
Just looked at someones blog-.-tried to cheer her up, hope shes ok:) Anyways, currently talking to my friend on fb. Hearing songs as well, and wish to go out later, but got to stay home-.-Im in a freakin rush to buy lots of bears and flowers from minitoons! Both for different purposes:) Important ones haha:P
22:27
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Geez, had a small argument with someone a few days ago. Sometimes I just dont feel like talking with her-.-I wanna ask someone else to come with me for ss3. Hope that person can go. Gonna ask her tomorrow maybe. Anyways, currently hearing music. 나는 무엇을 해야 하는가? 많은 사람들이 기대하는 나를 모르고 나는 어떻게 대답해야 좋을지를다, 특히 관심을 때도 없소. 그러나 난 아이들을 화나게 하고 싶습니다.... Check translation for yourself if you wanna know what it means-.-too private lol? Haha:D ~ending here~
08:06
Monday, 16 August 2010.
Shit, I spent so much money today when hanging out with shanice just now.. It was really fun. Met her friends keryn and adelyn. Was currently talking with Shannon just now.. Not much to talk about btw, so I guess I'll end my post here today..
03:01
Saturday, 14 August 2010.
Hey! Yawn, just came back home a moment a from dinner. Now talking with Shannon, again:) talked with him the whole day! Serious. Then had a stomachache again, from being forced to eat finish my food when too full:( I cant wait for Erica to be online. Need to tell her something:P Anyways, still facebooking-.-and hearing songs by you know who:D Well, dont wanna update too much for today:) Byes~
06:28
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Yo!~ Wow, talk with Shannon from morning till 4something. Currently facebooking. And got my iPhone 4 today! Oh and thanks so much Mingx2, hehe, I have Donghae's korean name le! Yawn, still need to message so many people my new number. Bye LG, hello iPhone! Haha:) Shall end my post here, kinda have a stomachache:P
02:10
Friday, 13 August 2010.
Yo! Currently on facebook, chatting with Shannon. Hehe, and listening to SUPER JUNIOR! Mostly just to look at Donghae:) -Donghae-❤ Anyways, had chinese dance today, and Im so tired.. Well, ending here, since theres nothing much to talk about-.-byes~:D
06:50
Tuesday, 10 August 2010.
I love Donghae! Ok, thats all I wanted to say, bye:D
06:37
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Hi sorry I havent been updating for awhile-.- I was er, busy. Went out today.. With Shanice:D Super fun. I went comic connection again and bought these pencil board. (Pics of Donghae+super junior) :D Oh anyways, tomorrow have sch, then the day after that got the science common test..... Anyways, currently on facebook, again. Was talking with Shanice, Ming Ming, and Jing Heng. Well, ending here~
06:34
